infinitepossibilities

lethargic is what i’m feeling right now. every time my beautiful uterus acts up, i’m always left with this feeling. pretty understandable considering the amount of reddish fluid that gets discharged from my system. no amounts of water, juices and iron supplements can somehow replenish the lost energy. it’s just it, the drained and hollow feeling. up until this time, i still find it curious why i cant seem to get the hang of it. come on, i’ve been experiencing this since i was twelve. i should have been used to it by now. but then…fast forward to 14 years later, my beautiful u still never fails to give me this feeling and i continue to wage war against it. resisting it. hard as i try, i can’t help but be overwhelmed with the emotion. it’s during these days that I succumb to the condition. i hate it BIG time, when i do… i lose control over everything. my being starts to get tense..with tense feeling, it flows heavily — all the more causing me to be more tense…and the struggle continues. i guess, it’s not so much the condition nor the struggle that eats me up, but rather it’s the notion that I have given permission for this feeling to surface. the idea that I may not be the strong person i conjure myself to be is frightening and disheartening. bs!:)