Archive for July, 2006

29
Jul

i’m at it too

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Categories: singleshespeaks

i met with one of my girlfriends for dinner sometime ago. like any other get-together, we had fun discussing a lot of things. in the so many topics that we’ve managed to cram in the little time we had, i castigated her for posting lyrics in her blog. told her that she’s announcing to the worldwide world that she can’t write, primarily because articles that she herself wrote were rather scarce in her page. anyway, to see the point of view of my friend, i’m gonna humor myself. i’m posting in this blog the lyrics of the following song:

i’d really love to see you tonight
-dan and coley

every time i hear this song i could picture zaldy realubit <a local basketball player> with his guitar. he sang this song to his wife… i remember admiring the guy for the way he held his guitar and the way his long fingers strummed/plucked the instrument. the movement was like a caress. at least that’s the way i remembered it. or i’m making it obvious that i like a ball player who can play the guitar.

why the song? no special reason except that I like the song, and I like the ball player who played this song to his wife. additionally, it somehow echoes the very thing that i wish to blurt out to a particular xy i met several several years ago and I sometimes see doing the thing that i like most: hehe; walking the city’s streets

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Hello, yeah, it’s been a while
Not much, how ’bout you
I’m not sure why I called
I guess I really just wanted to talk to you

And I was thinking maybe later on
We could get together for a while
It’s been such a long time
And I really do miss your smile

{Refrain}
I’m not talking ’bout movin’ in
And I don’t want to change your life
But there’s a warm wind blowin’ the stars around
And I’d really love to see you tonight

We could go walking through a windy park
Or take a drive along the beach
Or stay at home and watch TV
You see it really doesn’t matter much to me

{Refrain}

I won’t ask for promises
So you don’t have to lie
We’ve both played that game before
Say I love you then say goodbye

22
Jul

deadlines…deadlines

By decrechoice 1 Comment
Categories: thought release

ha.. i’m at my wit’s end figuring out how to juggle the projects on my team’s plate… grrrr, everyone’s working like there’s no tomorrow, yet we’re still unable to deliver our goods…

looking forward to better days for us…

right now, i’ve got to go and catch up on my sleep… i was on guard duty for the past five days that my body is screaming for rest…

yet, the other part of my brain is screaming, forget sleep.. you still haven’t made time for johnny depp… pirate’s running for several days now, 1 week +, i think [i suck at tracking days lately]…

making no sense here… so logging off.

16
Jul

cowardspeak

By decrechoice 4 Comments
Categories: singleshespeaks

in one of my earlier blogs, i’ve mentioned that when you come to a certain age, you practically have an idea of what you are and what you’re capable of doing. i said then that i’m one conceited individual who claims she’s intelligent and who’s ready for everything that’s thrown at her. who knows what she’s doing and what she’ll do.

well, i still believe that. however, if there’s one thing i don’t know, it’s how to NOT BE SINGLE. let’s face it, i’ll be 27 in a couple of weeks. all those years i’ve been on my own. i do things with and and by myself. i have never been on a date, never been asked, and even if asked will generally bolt at the hint of an xy’s invitation. yeah, i’m that coward.

so there. being single is my way of life. taking a new path as what most people around me has been hinting is a path i don’t know i should be treading. my closest of friends often claim that i have a knack at complicating things, and i could only surmise that I would do the same thing with the xy’s life. so why tread the path? why complicate another person’s life? i do that successfully with my own life? why drag another person?

<why not, vet?>

15
Jul

find an xy

By decrechoice 2 Comments
Categories: singleshespeaks

Manshadow it’s been thrice this month that well-meaning individuals flatly said that I need a boyfriend! reason. i live and breathe work. i’m practically at work most of the day, seven days a week.

strike one.
it’s a sunday. me and three other officemates came to our new office to make sure we have network and Internet connections come first day at work at the new office. tired and hungry after a long day’s work, i blurted out; "why are we doing this again? why are we here and not somewhere else?" came the reply of mahiwagang john: because you don’t have an option 2. "naa unta ka dapat option 2. dapat ma’am naa kay…" i knew what he had to say and I could only laugh him off in response. sakto?!?

strike two.
statuesque guard of the company coffers caught me working on a sunday. well, i was on guard duty to make sure that our new office is fit to receive foreign guests. mrs. k, obviously surprised at my presence, approached me and asked what I was doing in the office. you got it. my reply was because i’ve got a lot of stuff to finish. then came the unsolicited advice. "vet, it’s a sunday. you should be out spending time with your boyfriend. find one."

strike three.
half-day saturday at work. as useless, i didn’t shut down my computer as i was intent on staying and finishing at least one set. my boss, who’s leaving in the afternoon caught me and stood behind me, and said, "you need plenty of boyfriends so you’ll get away from work. you need six." adding kalamansi to the wound; good old DJ had to chime in "vet, go home now. find boyfriend now since tomorrow, you’ll work."

and i’m out.

just one thing. the xx me doesn’t have answers to why i remain single. i’ve got a lot of theories, but then again they’re theories not facts. as to the one xy, well — it’d be fun to know you. if and only if you exist and if you’re part of the mighty being’s plan for me. and buddy you’d have to tell me that you’re an xy.

12
Jul

my therapy

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Categories: thought release

let’s just say i’m in a mood to make a list. well, it’s my way of saying that not one drop of my creative juices is flowing. good words and lines are in front of the picket line refusing to do as I command and my good ole fingers refusing to punch in the right letters on the keyboard.

nonsense talk aside, here are the things that i do whenever i’m seeing red, feeling stressed, downright sad, or pathetically bored:

Dsc01042 -walk-walk-walk-walk
this is my ultimate. just by doing this, all the negative energy that’s within me gets released. despite the perspiration, i feel exhilirated whenever I do this. armed with just a bottle of mineral water and a kerchief to cover my nose, i usually walk the stretch from ayala — gorordo — left to escario — until the capitol building… but on a real bad day, i continue to walk from the capitol area, turn left heading to fuente, off to jones avenue until leon kilat street, fronting E-mall. sometimes, i take the ayala-gorordo-mango..etc., route.

-tambay sa U.P. batibot past 9PM to even midnight
haha, i usually do this when I’m overwhelmed with work. from ayala, i would walk towards UP to sit and hang around the batibot tambayan. no spectacular reason except that going back to UP somehow anchors me to reality. hehe, i practically grew up in UP, from high school to college. so i have this notion that UP can provide me answers that i seek. sitting at the batibot somehow reminds me that I was trained to think and to find solutions to any and all kinds of problems.
i wonder if i’d be doing a lot of this in the coming days. well, it’s definite that i’d be passing by U.P. every day of life as my work place is now in good, old, familiar JY.

-shoot hoops at the 4th level timezone, ayala
applicable only when i still have enough dough. i usually finish off the 100-peso game load in the span of around 20 minutes. i also think that it’s a good exercise, at least for the arms, not to your wallet though… well, it’s been a while since i’ve visited the place, however, since i’ve frequented the place i could say that i’m getting good at shooting balls. my record so far is 75 points.

-watch last full show feature at ayala
it’s my little treat to myself for putting in several hours of work each week. but since i loathe the crowd, i usually do this during off-peak days.

-sending a single SMS message to my best friend in grade school and my high school seatmate
this is the most weird stress reliever. weird, because I seldom see these two guys. i dont even maintain direct communication with these two. heck, there’s no regular communication to begin with. but for some reason when i’m utterly troubled, i punch in the questions in my head and send the message to the two unfortunate souls. rationale? nothing special except that these two already know that my tupak si vet, so there’s no explaining for me to do. what’s more weird, is i just want to release the negative vibe, without expecting them to reply. the reason why i make it appoint that i send the message when i deem them to be asleep already. haha, the assuming in me thinks that i dont irritate them, and that they’ll just ignore the message. thankfully, i haven’t done this in the past months, IF my memory serves me. if not, pasensya na pud tan.god.