Archive for September 2nd, 2006

02
Sep

2.7

By decrechoice 0 Comments
Categories: Uncategorized

rarely do i think about my birthday. i’m not big on celebrations and the whole shebang. surprisingly, weeks before i turned 2.7, i had the unusual preoccupation about it. heck, i’ve been telling people that it’d be my birthday on Agos2. i often catch myself speculating about what will happen on that day. i’ve no idea what’s going on, but i can’t help myself to think about it then.

agos1.
a week before, i filed for leave from work. i told myself that as a gift, i’ll spend my day sleeping…haha. yeah, to spend my birthday in the land of zzzz…..

now, a day before my birthday, i was in for a surprise. well, ruined the  surprise actually. normally, i’m the last person to eat lunch in our company. as i was to enter our kitchen, yam casually blocked the door and told me not to enter. oblivious me, didn’t find anything unusual and just proceeded to enter the room to get my food. hahaha.. at the corner table by the fridge, ley and ‘lil boy ivan were frantically trying to light all 27 candles on my birthday cake. darn those naughty boys… Cake1 

27_candles 27 candles my…they’re lucky that i’m fond of them.

if i hadn’t reached this age, i wouldn’t have experienced having my own birthday cake. haha…my very first cake after so many years. thus, jhulz insisted that i blow the candles and cut the cake…

Blowthecandles_2 Cutthecake                     Ivanandley

‘lil boy ivan and ley digging in their big slice of the cake… Ivan Dsc01466

and here’s master kram giving me a piece of his mind: Masterkram_1 "if naa mangutana pila na imo edad, stick lang jud ka sa 24, gang. kani jud imo mind set pirmi." Arbie                                      arbie reacts while epoy agrees Epoy_2and so does everyone

Everyone_1                          anyway, i owe this little surprise treat to two wonderful little girls in my life…     thanks to yam and line Yam 

for making the effort andLine  making me feel that i deserve this much treatment. i often ask myself if there’s something worthwhile i do to others that would prod them to provide me happiness and my weirdo mind would usually reply, na-ah vet. you do nothing to others and your little existence doesn’t matter much to them. however, what you guys did more than contradict my pessimistic mind. to which, i’ll remain grateful. i also appreciate the thought that you shield me from taking on more burden that you’d rather opt to keep your concerns to yourself. as much as i want to coerce you about sharing your burdens, i know i can’t do that. nevertheless, i take comfort in the idea that you both have enough fortitude and smarts within you. again, thank you for this surprise…. and to jen Jen thanks for your gift.                     

02
Sep

is it shameful?

By decrechoice 1 Comment
Categories: thought release

August 18
11:35 PM
3/F MIT Bldg.

Friday night. I’m still in the office trying to finish a set. nope, it’s not martyrdom that prompted me to stay this late. neither can it be called workaholism. i’m still here because i have a deadline tomorrow. moreover, i wouldn’t allow this deadline to make me MISS a weekend getaway with a couple of my girl friends from college. as useless, i’m cramming <technically, as of this moment..NA-AAH, as i’m taking a break and writing this>, because my friggin’ body hasn’t been up to its usual healthy self. i missed work yesterday, and this day didn’t present any better, health-wise. most of the morning i fought the urge to go home and sleep off the nagging pain in my stomach <it’s like someone’s trying to squeeze dry my intestines.> in between my trying to focus on a set and trying to update my team’s progress, were countless trips to the bathroom as the food from breakfast was trying to push its way out. mein, i hate the acid that i could taste in my mouth.

side track.

ha. it usually happens like this. when i’m sitting, doing nothing, my ‘lil old brain usually randomly plays out numerous comments that i hear from here and there. then, i’d rush and grab hold of a pen and paper to try to capture the rapid thoughts flashing in my head. just a few minutes ago, the thought that flashed through my head with great intensity was my officemates’ fascination for match-making lately. bang! i’ve got no statistics at hand, but perception is very clear that majority seems to be quite enamored listening to tales that a certain "he" likes a certain "she" or that "she" likes "he". right. it’s so high school. my sentiments exactly. now what juggles my supposedly complicated little brain is the flashing thought <read: warning signal! as in flashing red bulb: VET! you’re 2.7. this isn’t high school! you are no longer 14, 15, or 16! at your age, you’re not suppose to indulge in that kind of high school behavior!> now, i’m well aware of that. what i’m not well aware about is why i DO indulge in such a behavior. WHY NOW? for crying out loud, i’ve never even had the experience talking with some female friends/classmates about crushes way back when my identity was 92-xxxx. truthfully, i couldn’t recall engaging in such a behavior. abnormal, isn’t it? now it beats me why i freely listen <sometimes talk about crushing on people>. a big part of my hypothalamus shouts "SHAME on you, vet!" the smaller part defends "why not? she’s normal, after all!"