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Archive for December, 2006
21
Dec
pre-holiday night out
a big event’s happening tomorrow. however, that didn’t prevent me from meeting college friends for an evening of mindless to profound chitchats, a nice and filling dinner, a big pitcher of frozen margarita, two orders of cheesy nachos and canned soda - shared, and some more lazy talk.
characters:
miss debi - joan - doc ini - ivy, and mwah
setting:
casa verde - for the nice dinner
roadside cafe whose name escapes me at arlington pond st. - for shots of frozen margarita
club ultima - for two orders of cheesy nachos and 2 canned soda, shared
time: 7 PM to 12 midnight
rarely do all of our schedules mesh. usually, one or two of us is missing when there’s a gathering. so knowing our erratic schedules, we make an effort to block at least one evening to spend time with each other. hahaha, in a year, this kind of gathering happens only 4 - 5 times, or maybe less. on top of that, it usually takes a week or two before we could agree on a date, but when we do… a simple evening becomes more than an explosive night, at least to us. it’s always a night of pure hilarious fun, of bashing at a particular friend or two, of lessons learned, of talks of plans, qualms, and certainties. haha, these talks are of varied topics ranging from the mundane to the surreal, from past lives to the present, difficulties and adaptation, crunchie chicken to sex. generally, the components that make our limited night memorable. if only we could have more time to do this. i really do enjoy spending time with these four intelligent women.
cheers to your birthday ma’am jo!
14
Dec
a big puzzle
some of the people whom i deeply respect are out conspiring against me. the conspirators - i call them - believe that i’m not ready to hear the truth. or at least it’s not time for me to hear the whole truth, yet. captain sailor told me to ask her on my birthday month next year. or as concession, probably march of next year. still, it’s too far for my own good. i tried coaxing the story out from purple nuts co-conspirator. blast me, all i got was a big grin. yeah, that’s all i managed to squeezed out from her. <conspirators, rejoice!> worst, that’s with the help of a high school buddy and amidst good food at the wfh. phew. moved on and tried pleading with pink-cheek-dimples-girl. wrong choice. very wrong. she’s more adamant about not spilling the beans. i even believe she’s behind the "do-not-tell-vet" mantra. grrrrhehehegrrrrhe… i’m frustrated because i want to hear it, although at the same time i’m scared to hear it.
"stop it vet. you wait. we know that it would hurt you much, but you’ll be happy to know that a lot of people love you." - conspirators.
up until now, i still ask the question; what could be so hurtful to me that they want to keep it a secret? haha. then i remembered owner-of-the-secluded-room-i-envy-slash-office’s everything-that-happens-has-a-reason bit. hayyy…
i give up. perhaps there’s a really good reason for the secrecy. just one more concession. kindly tell me everything in writing now. just don’t let me read it now. give it to me when you think i can handle the truth. i can’t wait next year because then some of the details will be lost. i want all the details - hurtful, malicious, or otherwise.
01
Dec
the main reason
aside from the lack of prospect and the nonexistent xy who’s interested in me - the main culprit why i remain single is this: I CARE TOO MUCH. DAMN. today, management had to announce to two departments that their sections [mine including] have to be dissolved. the company doesn’t have work to give to our men. this is supposed to be a happy news for me. that’s because it means i’d have the time of the world to take that much needed vacation. hey! i just got retrenched! but why am i sad? i’m sad because i love my work so much. i live and breathe work. i’ve invested sweat and blood for this company to stay afloat. now, almost 5 years of pure dedication, sacrifice, and hardwork is now down the drain. gone. i’m pissed! i’m literally shaking with ire because of this. i’m furious because the pain is so terrible. i’m angry because this wouldn’t have felt worst had i not care too much. this is one weakness that up until now i haven’t overcome. i know myself too much that i would be devastated should i find an xy whom i’ll care tremendously with all my being [heck, i even believe in giving up career for a life with an xy] and then things such as one person falling out of l.o.v.e happen. whew. i know i wouldn’t take the news quite well. i’ll fall down the infinite abyss. but then again, this is the coward in me speaking. darn, if only there aren’t strings attached.
