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have you ever wanted something so badly that makes your stomach queasy?
… there’s something that i don’t understand. how come i get so affected with things so easily? why can’t i be like most people who can just easily shrug things off? what was it that changed me? i used to be oblivious and indifferent to most things…
>>> i know about compartmentalization. i’m a master at it back in college. yet, somewhere along, i managed to unlearn it. today, i am unable to compartmentalize…….
i could hear my heart beat. fast. it’s beating so fast that i want my heart to burst just so the tension in my nerves is relieved. yet no matter how my brain commands it to slow down, the fighter heart pays no heed to good ole little brain.
???????? when will the heartaches end?
you there. do you think if i’m wiped off the face of the earth, you will get the vindication you seek?!? i’ve rammed my mind, but i just couldn’t fathom why you should be made to pay for things that aren’t your undoing. how vindictive can people get?
the ego.
++++++++ to what extent will a person go just so he could save his ego?
what is pride?
what is humiliation?
what is principle?
what is greed?
greed and principle. do they go together? can they go together?
]]]]]]why are some susceptible to anger? why can’t i convince myself that angry outbursts are normal and okay?
why the pain? why are the events repeating? what’s the lesson unlearned?
[[[[[[ why are my hands shaking? why can't i control a simple a gland as my lacrimal?
why is caring about people hurtful? how can you lose compassion? i want to lose it. i really, really wish i could stop caring about people.
>>>>>> let me unlearn empathy. help me control the shaking of my hands. help.
faith. right, kapatid?
