dsi: why don’t you fight for what you want?
llp: hmmm… because getting what i want means going against what i value at the moment. an xx never tells an xy that she "might be liking him". yes, yes.. i know that i’m being overly traditional. my logical mind even screams that this value no longer holds water in this day and age. i accept that and i acknowledge that. although i’m loathe to admit it, i am truly a coward to act like an xx of the twenty-first century. i’m probably the biggest coward on this side of the planet…… um, besides, the opportunity hasn’t presented itself. so there. in any case, if there’s that little opening and if i do recognize that little bit of crack in the scheme of things <coz yeah, i’m a moron when it comes to this>, i think i’ll be able to admit it to the person. yet, on the second thought… what’s there to admit?
jcb: sometimes, you have to create the opportunity to do what you want. waiting for things to happen is YOU letting life pass you by.
llp: ouch, that hurts! but, isn’t that manipulation? technically, you’re luring the person to come to you. come on, if the person doesn’t come to you or at least know that you exist, it only means that you are not enough of a stimulus to the person. read: you’re not a valuable stimulus! end of the story. there’s nothing you can do to become a stimulus to that person. you’ll just have to accept that and move on. also, besides the manipulation angle that doesn’t sit well with me, don’t you think it’s a blow to the ego? your own person couldn’t bring the person to you, thus you’ll have to resort to things as creating opportunities? don’t you want to keep your pride?
that voice: you’re saying that you’d rather save your ego, maintain your pride and do nothing? you’d rather remain to be a non-entity to the person and let your chance at happiness slip? don’t you think it’s preposterous? and you claim to be an intelligent individual….hah, all evidence proves otherwise…. you had better do some major rethinking…
llp: i have no answer to that. well, doing something about it also doesn’t guarantee happiness.
that voice: perhaps, but what’s there to lose for you, anyway? sticking to your non-action plan is already a no-win solution for you. in fact, the non-action plan is making you miserable minute by minute. admit it.
