infinitepossibilities

i dont know how to put these into words. perhaps i should begin with these two words: i’m sorry.

i’m apologizing not because i regretted the words i’ve said to you. i’m apologizing because despite the hurtful words i’ve thrown, you continue to care and love me. you didn’t take the words i’ve used against me. at the time when i said those words, i too know that they were meant to hurt you. i know you know that hurting you was never the intention. they were spoken to you because i care for you soooo much to allow you to make a fool of yourself. that’s the least that i want to happen to a friend, to be seen as a fool by anyone.

it’s tough being a friend. it’s more tough because within your hand is the power to hurt your friend. as a teacher back in college said, only those stimuli that you’ve placed so much value on can and has the power to hurt you, the perceiver. friends are stimuli that are so valuable to a person that they’re priceless.

i’m apologizing now because only when you threw back the words i’ve used then did i realize how much i must have hurt you. i’m sorry. however, i’m also thankful that when it was your time to say the hurtful words to me, you didn’t cower. i appreciate the blunt words as you have appreciated my brutally honest opinions.

know that i hear the words that you said. i cannot do them now though. in time, i’ll muster enough courage to follow the very same advice i’ve given you.