hello elusive one,
so where do you hide yourself? i need you. not for any special reason. i just want to see you around. feeling your presence somehow gives me comfort. it’s interesting the kind of power you have over me. it’s so unfortunate that you’re not existent in my world. or if you are, you definitely have a way of making your presence scarce. when will you show yourself? is there even a chance that you exist? are you among the throng i see every day? are you lurking from somewhere? how come you’re not a part of my life? how come i often wonder if you’re ever going to be part of mine? i truly wish to see you if only to stop the mental anguish. i want to be comforted with your presence. i want some of the hollow feelings that creep inside me from time to time gone. i want to be reassured that there’s another human being out there ready to take on my brand of craziness and live with it. i want to have someone to keep me grounded. i’ve been flying for far too long.
darn, i’m tired of waiting.
do something.
be something.
if only i’m privy to god’s master plan. if only i’m certain that you’re part of the dude up there’s bigger plan. i’d probably come up to you by now. and by golly, you’re going to get the hardest slap on the face. mein, what took you so long??
fortunately for you, you’re not here. or if you are, i’m too much of a moron and a coward to be recognized myself. be warned though. a hard slap on the face may not be just what you’re going to get. there would have to be a harsher punishment. heck, it’s only fair for making me wait like forever. several things have happened in my life where you could have been a solid figure of support. heck, why are you depriving me of this chance to shower you with all the great things life has to offer. nah, i actually don’t have much to offer, so i applaud you for the wise decision of staying away. carry on.
