yay! i managed to squeeze a few hours and was able to update my travel blog over at wordpress. as mentioned in an earlier post, a group of officemates and i decided to hit the road and visit the towns of south cebu over the weekend. as has become the habit here, details of the trip can be found in my other blog.
simply click the following link so you can be directed to my account of our trip down south.
as useless, i don’t have that much time in my hands to fully document my recent travels… hehe, it’s been almost two months since my macau-hk trip and i’ve only posted two blogs.. for those who are utterly bored: check out some pix of my trip to macau last year:
http://decrechoice.wordpress.com/2008/02/26/macau-day-1/
haha, day 1 pa lang ni…
for preview of my palawan trip click on the linke below:
http://decrechoice.wordpress.com/itinerary/ [hehe, 4 pix lang.. no time..just scroll down to the end of the page^^]
for my trip down south of cebu… hmm… will find time pa and i still have to borrow pix from line and ley; forgot to bring reserved batteries during the trip.
to the few na masaag here: enjoy the pixies!
i couldn’t care less if the above happens in the workplace. it only means irresponsibility on the part of the worker who has no concept of basic human decency.
but what if a friend whom you consider your very main sounding board chooses to go a.w.o.l on you for reasons she’s not quite ready to share.
it’s cute. sure. give the person her space. she has every right to choose whom she wishes to see or not.
at the back of your mind, you know and recognize that a friend can only be a friend nothing more. a friend will never have the right to impose on the other friend’s life.
you know that. there’s no question or even iota of doubt in you that there really is a limitation to friendships.
you respect your friend’s choice not to see you.
perhaps, she’s really in the middle of something and she has reached that part of her life when you’re no longer needed.
how do you accept that?
how do you stop yourself from crying?
how do you convince yourself that you were not discarded?
some day soon… she says.
how do you tell yourself that she really needs to distance herself from you?
how do you stop yourself from getting angry at her?
what do you tell yourself that it really is her choice and there’s really not much you can do about it.
why am i getting narrow-minded?
one word: loss
you don’t like the loss because the long talks is that which keeps your sanity.
have you considered that you must have over burdened her with all your crap and indecisions that you’ve become toxic to her? thus, she chose distance?
i feel the hurt right now. big time.
for a while i will ignore you. sure, you’ll get a one-word reply from me. that’s me in denial and abandoned. let me at least have that. but in the long run, despite these words, even the seemingly unfair accusations, these are just loneliness talking. darn, i just miss talking to you.. well, more like blabbering..
only one realization;
whatever your friend decides to do, or however long your friend decides to stay away from you, one thing is guaranteed, you know you will always be there when she decides to report back to duty. always.
hopefully, it wouldn’t change. hopefully time would not come that the absence becomes the norm and acceptance is what you choose to do.
9:00 p.m.
room is empty except for the lone person in the kitchen, tapping the keys on the keyboard.
in the background, chester is shouting his hearts out.
thinking……….
tomorrow is valentine’s day.
thinking………………..
finish editing. nawwwwwww….
3 nights to go and you’re off to palawan. hopefully.
but what is that gnawing feeling that seems to crush that single organ in your left chest?
why do you always think?
deep sadness.
let go.
it’s not your fault.
haha, it’s been more than a month since our last trip to macau - hong kong. but it’s only now that i’ve had the time to write about it again. or shall i say, provide a link to the write-up from my other blog…hehe, i’m just too lazy to do the whole blog entry once again here… for all i know, there’s really no one who takes the time to visit my little place on the net. but in case there are few "saags," feel free to read on my little taste of macau entry. just click on the link below. enjoy macau!!! will write more about it soon. hehe, i’m just in love with the place… if only i have the time and resources to go back there…[sigh!]…
http://decrechoice.wordpress.com/2008/02/08/a-taste-of-macau/
my heart is definitely about to burst. <scream!!!!!!!> last november 2007, i bought a cebu-puerto princesa-cebu plane ticket. haha, courtesy of the cebu pacific piso-fare again! when i booked that flight, the mindset was i had 12 days of leave to enjoy come 2008. late january, i learned that our leaves would now only be limited to 5 SIL - the government-mandated number of leaves. if i do things as planned, it would mean that i would be availing 4 days of my 5-day leave… wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh…
one thing is guaranteed. i will not be able to forgive myself if i pass up the opportunity to travel to palawan this feb 16.
