infinitepossibilities

i couldn’t care less if the above happens in the workplace. it only means irresponsibility on the part of the worker who has no concept of basic human decency.

but what if a friend whom you consider your very main sounding board chooses to go a.w.o.l on you for reasons she’s not quite ready to share.

it’s cute. sure. give the person her space. she has every right to choose whom she wishes to see or not.

at the back of your mind, you know and recognize that a friend can only be a friend nothing more. a friend will never have the right to impose on the other friend’s life.

you know that. there’s no question or even iota of doubt in you that there really is a limitation to friendships.

you respect your friend’s choice not to see you.

perhaps, she’s really in the middle of something and she has reached that part of her life when you’re no longer needed.

how do you accept that?
how do you stop yourself from crying?
how do you convince yourself that you were not discarded?

some day soon… she says.

how do you tell yourself that she really needs to distance herself from you?
how do you stop yourself from getting angry at her?
what do you tell yourself that it really is her choice and there’s really not much you can do about it.

why am i getting narrow-minded?

one word: loss

you don’t like the loss because the long talks is that which keeps your sanity.

have you considered that you must have over burdened her with all your crap and indecisions that you’ve become toxic to her? thus, she chose distance?

i feel the hurt right now. big time.

for a while i will ignore you. sure, you’ll get a one-word reply from me. that’s me in denial and abandoned. let me at least have that. but in the long run, despite these words, even the seemingly unfair accusations, these are just loneliness talking. darn, i just miss talking to you.. well, more like blabbering..

only one realization;
whatever your friend decides to do, or however long your friend decides to stay away from you, one thing is guaranteed, you know you will always be there when she decides to report back to duty. always.

hopefully, it wouldn’t change. hopefully time would not come that the absence becomes the norm and acceptance is what you choose to do.