vet: that’s basically me. not much to tell.
l—-: come on… what about hobbies?
his question is rather simple, right? it doesn’t need much brain power to come up with an answer to that. but believe it or not, i was stumped.
when i had to pause to think about my hobbies, it made me think “boy, what kind of person have i allowed myself to become? how is it that even at the age of 29, i still don’t know much of what i am? a few weeks before the seminar, he-who-causes-happiness-and-pain-at-the-same-time asked me how’d i see myself ten years from now. 2018. at the time i was asked that, i too, was unable to give a definite answer. incidentally, that same question was asked of us during the seminar. we were given time to ponder the question over lunch. it was during that time that i realized i know the answer to the question from the very first time it was asked of me. only that when it was asked first, my brain refused to entertain the ideas because they all border on the impossible. my brain refused to acknowledge that what i want to have ten years hence are things that can be categorically placed under “fantasy”. fantasy because they’re too good to be true, and with the way i run the course of my life coupled with things beyond my control, the things that appeared on the 10-year-hence-list are just not feasible. but let it be said that though they may not be attainable, they’re one heck of a dream list. but i won’t be saying it here for the world to know, not that people actually read me. perhaps in another outlet. ** wink* wink
